Friday, December 6, 2013

Change of pace...

I wanted to share this - as I will be writing in this blog less and less going forward.

This is the blog I started when I decided to make the leap, and sell everything I own (except my apartment, that little beauty is being rented out) and move across to a completely new place.

A little background - the other blog is open - my friends and family have access, they can see what I'm doing and overall, I'm sharing the little differences and things that I've been experiencing being an 'ex-pat' for the first time in my life at a stage in my life where I'm more experienced and have more to offer than if I had done this at any other time in my life previously.
I took a massive leap outside of my comfort zone and held my breath, hoping that this move would bring me 'more.'
Now, I've talked about 'more' in the past. To me, 'more' meant just a little more than the day before. That's how I think I like to run my life - whether that be exciting trips, new adventures, or just pushing that much harder, physically, in all the sports and athletics I tend to participate in.
Some days, 'more' is just relaxing more, enjoying a better glass of wine or 6... having a better relationship with friends and family, nothing very tangible, but something in my head that makes me feel content and happy.
'More' has never been 'things' to me - it's always been something not totally measurable, but something felt within.
I moved in order to push myself out of my comfort zone and accomplish 'more' in totally different directions than I have previous.
I was given an opportunity - and I took it.
I'm looking out onto a street that 5 years ago, I couldn't even fathom doing.
I watched friends move here in the past, even my ex boss used to live here and excelled at his career - so I'm doing the same. Will I stay for a long time? No idea - but I'm telling you right now, I'm happy with my decision.

Monday, October 7, 2013

what's new?

I moved. I got a new job. I've completely gone a different direction than I did before. The waves will probably start again, but differently.
I took a bit leap and left the country and headed over the pond to do something so different.
I sometimes think these things happen to help push us in a place that may seem insane... just to get us out of our comfort zones.
I know i'll miss my friends and my life in rainycity, but then again... I'm still in a rainycity :)

I'm excited to see what is next.

Sunday, September 22, 2013


Apparently I'm moving. It's one of those things where it hits me in pieces. I sold my furniture, it'll be a lot more empty in my place as of this week. I have so much to do. I have a list that seems to get bigger and bigger and every once in awhile it hits me, holy fuck, I'm leaving. I'm having a hard time seeing everyone before I go. I love my friends. I am going to miss them terribly. I'm trying here and there and I still have things to do - like preparing for my final interview/presentation. I have SO much work to do. I'm a bit freaked out. I'm now asking for help, cause I can't do this on my own. The interesting thing is that everyone assumes I'm ok. And I guess to a point, I am but I HATE HATE HATE asking for help. It's hard for me. It's funny, cause you sort of forget the fact that we're only human and it's ok to ask. So, I have. I realized the other day that I had nowhere to sleep after my bed sells, ha! So... where do I sleep? What about my extra stuff, where does it go since it won't all fit in my car? Oh, and I'm going to have no car!!!! Ha! it's a shitshow sometimes. I'm taking the bits of peace while I can. I've now been off work for a month and it doesn't even feel like a day. I have to say my stress level is better and yes Elmwood, you're right it just WILL happen. I will make it happen. I will make this presentation work. I will make this move happen. I will make this job happen. I will enjoy the help given and offered and be ok asking for more if need be. I will allow people to do things for me if offered and I will breathe.
Wow, what a month it's been!

Thursday, September 12, 2013

So, ah, ya

I'm moving.
I was approached about a position while I had a job. I was flattered, thanks, ya, not sure I want to actually look into that, I'm still working and shit... THEN fast forward two weeks... K's out of a job. WTF? So... send off a quick email to a few people including said friends who mentioned position above and get the response of something like: Get your shit in order, I'm forwarding your resume, you have nothing to lose!
Go to... K freaking out, mainly cause this job is in... NOT HERE. New possible job is located across the pond. OMG!
So... K gets the documents together to make it legal for her to work there.
K gets email from HR from across-the-pond asking for an interview. Wow, ok. Two days later, go visit family. BIG ASS talk with family... lots of lots of lots of conversations, what ifs, the good, the bad... sat down with some friends, blah blah blah, back to mom... it's just too good to pass up. Even if this position doesn't go through, I have so much opportunity there.
So... go home, apply for legal stuff, interview - KILL IT!!!! Testing - did great. Bigger interview - NAILED IT! and another one in between. Scary shit...
Then out of nowhere, ok, a whole 7 days later... I'm now legally allowed to work there. Holy fuck, shit just got real.
Sell... everything. Pack up the rest. Get stuff organized.
I can't even begin to tell you how much time this is taking. And how much have I learned? Every day I've learned something new. I have been really lucky to have had friends offer advice here and there.
I still feel overwhelmed. I don't feel like I'm getting ahead, even if I probably am... I need help packing and organizing and my head feels like it's going to explode.
I have so much stuff going on in my head, I haven't slept for longer than 5 hours since I made the decision to do this.
I know it'll be worthwhile once I've done it, but at the moment, I just feel overwhelmed. How am I going to get rid of everything, how's the timing going to work... how am I going to get it all done!?
It's so exciting though. It's so freaking cool having this opportunity. I'm just thrilled.
I'm almost there. I almost have a job... fingers crossed and pass me another glass of wine.
How much can things change in a month... holy crap. Not even a month.

Saturday, September 7, 2013

So, what's happening?

So, the thing that has happened since I lost my job is how many people who have been concerned. The out pour has been pretty cool - from old co-workers who have contacted my counterpart asking if they could help, old coworkers who heard and contacted me asking if I need help.
Honestly, I'm so incredibly touched. My old boss contacted me. My old firm contacted me...
The thing that's interesting is the opportunities when you do a good job working and make great contacts.
So, what's going on? I'm actually interviewing for a position right now that looks pretty cool. My fingers are crossed, this would entail a HUGE change in my life and it's too soon to say one way or the other, but I'm excited.
So truly one door shut, and another opened right up in my face, pushed open by a good friend.
Everything really does happen for a reason!

Thursday, August 22, 2013

so they say...

Everything happens for a reason... or so they say.
I lost my job this week and it's been weird. During that time, people have suggested things I could do, things to see etc etc... I've been all over the place and my head hasn't been totally straight yet. I'm lucky to have these amazing friends who are here to support me, in whatever decision I make. But at the moment, I don't know. I'm confused. I'm scared, I'm excited, I'm still not really feeling 'unemployed.'  I have a bit of money given to me as severance to help with the whole process and well, it's giving me time and opportunity itself. I have a couple of months to survive, at least, and come to some conclusions...
That being said, I'm not sleeping amazingly well, my head is all over the place, my phone bill is going to be HUGE this month, ha! I'm on the phone now on hold trying to figure out plans for some things, looking into others and people are SO friendly in times of need and help.
I've given myself some time to think about things and see how things go... all I know for sure is that there are a couple unbelievable opportunities for me which I'd be stupid to not consider, so I will. But that will entail a lot of work on my end, so that's the first thing.
Then, we'll see.... I'm curious to see where my life takes me this time...

On a good note, seeing my one boss almost cry, another just stare and knowing I lost my job, not because I didn't work hard or do a good enough job, but ONLY because they couldn't afford two of us... helps. I'm seeing them in a couple of weeks, once we've all had time.
I loved my coworkers, they were fun and interesting and just great people. I don't regret anything on that end, how I worked, or what I did. It had nothing to do with me and more to do with the requirements they had, financially.
Such is life. One door closes and another opens... I'll be curious to see where that door takes me.

Friday, August 9, 2013

And it continues...

The sun that is, and all sorts of fun that comes with it.

Between many many lawnbeers and patio catchups, there are movies in the park with fun friends and weekend mini-vacations with fabulous people.
To be honest, at times it's too busy - too overwhelming. To have something planned for every weekend, which both satisfies my type-a personality and stresses me out when I realize I haven't had a day to myself in weeks... so that's now been scheduled too :) Fortunately, my extroverted self enjoys doing nothing with others. A bunch of us went away to a friend's parent's place which was overlooking a lake and the most we did one day was going boating with her cousins and shopping later followed up by pool and food and drinks. The rest of the time? Reading and swimming. Sweet. I currently have a bunch of books I want to read, so managed to lightly tan myself while taking dips in the pool to cool off and then... that's right, more food and booze. I honestly felt like I was at a swanky B&B - ah, that is the life :)
Then, the same can be accomplished at home, on a beach, with friends, relaxing and reading and eating and drinking - without the pool, but the weather is still fucking kick-ass.

And the visitors. I've now had three sets of friends come out from the UK to visit myself and others this summer. Others came out from out east, others only as far as the Rock I grew up on.

I'm not used to this - but I'm loving ever moment. I'm not used to so much sunshine that makes you want to be outside doing something ALL the time. I've succeeded in getting one early morning run in weekly, for the past 4 weeks now - the early jog across the bridge looking down the quiet calm ocean is really rejuvenating and keeps me going for the day. I've managed to hit a ton of patios, catching up with so many great people and experiencing a few new things I haven't done yet in this fair city.

Work has been UBER busy - with everyone on holidays, my workload has doubled in the past couple of weeks, but it's been a nice, VERY nice way of making the days move that much faster.
And what's missing? boy -talk? Well, there's this and that nothing that's totally worth talking about at the moment... but we shall see :)

40 + days of sunshine with only one night of rain? I'll take it. Let's just hope it holds out til October... :)